August 1, 2010

Randy Ford Author- A PRINCE Fourth Novel 28th Installment

      Without the backing of the son-of-bitch Lenny never would’ve been elected president of his senior class. He happily woke up one morning to the reality of having won by a wide margin and accepted the gift without mentioning his benefactor.  That was the understanding from the get go.   He didn’t have to say, of course, because everybody knew who ran things.

      It had been a pretty vicious campaign.   The results were recorded in the weekly edition of the Tattletale but nothing about how Cesar stole the election for Lenny.   Horace Jackson should’ve won.   Horace had the most determination and lined the halls with the most posters…three or four times more than anyone else.   Lenny wasn’t as smart as Horace but wouldn’t have wanted to be.   He felt contempt for anyone smart enough to belong to the National Honor Society and Cesar convinced him to use that against Horace.   And before he could come up with a response Horace was assailed by a hateful band of nose pickers and snot eaters who were organized by Cesar to mock him.   The nose pickers and snot eaters would follow Horace around.   Some pretended to idolize him.   Poor Horace, he was smart but not smart enough to outwit Cesar.   And each time the nose pickers mocked Horace, Lenny stood up for him.   He’d say, “How gross!  Cut it out and show more respect for someone who’s better.”   And each time he defended Horace, Lenny got a little closer to winning and eventually overtook his opponent.

      And afterward, as a way of celebrating, Cesar said, “Let’s run to border and get some nooky,” and the three of them went down there, and Cesar got out, walked in, and plopped down a wad of dough.   He gave a little chuckle as he led the way.   Antonio and Lenny tagged along.   After all they were only seventeen.   That night Lenny was passionate, he was weak, he was stupid, he was pitiful, and the worse thing was he was terribly inept.

      Going to shoot the son-of-bitch.

Higgs remembered how Maggie started to cry.

     “Now what’s the matter,” he asked.

      “I’m so happy.”

      Notwithstanding the fact that he had just given her an engagement ring he saw in her face sadness that only could’ve come from a sense of foreboding.   He had been drinking, garnering courage.   But not yet drunk.   He made it a point not to drink too much around her.

      “Wow, I’m glad that’s over.   Don’t laugh.   I was very nervous.”

      “I couldn’t tell.”

      They sat facing each other at table in front of a huge fish tank.   They’d ordered sea fish platters and the platters had come.   They allowed the waiter to squeeze lemon over the cod.   They’d planned to go to a movie; except Lenny said something had come up, something that he was vague about.   He stretched his arms across the table and taking her hands said, “I wanted this to be perfect.”

      “It was just like I always imagined.”

      And he felt like taking her in his arms and kissing her on the lips, except the damn table was in the way; their fish, shrimp, and scallops were getting cold, and they were in a public place.   Captain Hook’s seafood platters were the very best in Tucson.

      She had to be beautiful, and with all of the competition how else could she have caught the future mayor?  And of course Maggie forgot everything the moment he finally took her in his arms.   Forgot how he kept looking at his watch.   Yes, he seemed very nervous.   That was to be expected, wasn’t it?

      She never cared for his silly grin that indicated a lie.   The truth hurt.   Maggie’s thoughts dwelt for a moment on high school and Lydia and how unfortunately she’d called Lydia a slut.   It belittled Maggie.   She felt superior to that.   But Lenny never spoke of Lydia.   Of course he didn’t love Lydia; boys didn’t love girls like Lydia.   But he was too much of a gentleman to slur the slut’s name.   Maggie smiled thinking of her victory; it was just like him, silly boy, even after they were engaged to be considerate and get her home on time, even when she was willing to reward him: reward him by allowing his tongue to slip into her mouth and more.   But for all of her seductiveness he held her at bay.

      “What’s the matter?”

      ”Nothing.”

      “For nothing you seem awfully jumpy.   Okay.”   It was okay then for him to give her a long, wet, passionate kiss; and as they held each other she chuckled and said, “Good night.   And a cold shower might help.”

      So after he proposed to Maggie and took her home for the night he hooked up with Cesar.   Cesar then took charge much like an excellent concierge and ushered Lenny into the Pioneer Hotel.   They didn’t mention Maggie.   By then Maggie would’ve been in bed.

      Rushing, they thought they knew everything, everything they needed to know.   Thanks to Cesar Lenny lost his innocence and was already caught up in the complications of sex.   Lenny’s face burned.   His palms were sweaty, and his temples throbbed.

      Cesar had arranged everything.   And the contempt he had for Lenny never surfaced, as he captained the game.   A rotten game, when one thought about it. “Whatta you think?”

      “A neat place,” said Lenny, as he looked around the lobby.

      Going to shoot the son-of-bitch or I’m going to die trying.

 

      Lenny had returned with Cesar to Pioneer Hotel downtown.   One needed no further explanation, in truth, than that Maggie went to church. Higgs blamed it all on her because she was a Baptist (hypocrites infuriated him; Higgs concluded, Catholics were more sexually liberated).   Oh, but that was an excuse, come on Higgs, be honest!   You can’t blame her for your downfall…or see Maggie again.   But this was preposterous: to blame his down fall on the fact that she wouldn’t give him any and would remain a virgin until their wedding night.

      Cesar, the consummate horse trader (a title Antonio gave him), a considerate trickster, had the unusual ability of always getting his way, and even back then could get people to sin.   In fact his hold on the night desk clerk at the Pioneer Hotel was based upon Cesar’s knowledge that the clerk had a taste for boys.   Moments of weakness, too often and shattering, allowed Cesar to control his victims and put him in a position of power.   That explained how he finagled a room at the Pioneer and set Lenny up for a night with Flo.   For Higgs Cesar made such arrangements on a regular basis until Maggie’s death.

      It was after midnight approaching one o’clock.   Already the musicians that played that night in the ballroom had unplugged their guitars and were lugging speakers and other equipment to a van double-parked in front of the hotel.   There also still were people from the bar going up to their rooms, and the clerk behind the main desk, sleepy by then since he’d worked a double shift, was expecting Cesar to come in with a friend.   He had a room key ready, a key on a ring with a tag with the room number on it.   If Cesar had gone up to the fourth floor with Lenny he would’ve seen that his instructions were followed…that instead of just any room he arranged for one of the better ones, where a woman by the name of Flo waited for Lenny.

      When Lenny entered the room and locked the door behind him, the light was on and Flo sat there with her back to him.   He could see that she was naked.   Looking out the window she watched the band below her get into their van and drive down Stone Avenue.   In silence she thought about how she usually worked South Sixth Avenue (in a halter-top, short shorts, and stacked heels) and not downtown and felt out of place.

      Floe suffered from asthma.   Chronic asthma.   Often it took all of her effort to breathe, but she needed the money.

      Lenny immediately felt sorry for Flo, whose asthma attack was so severe that she spent most of the night sitting in a chair attached to a breathing machine.   Then it became his job to sit up with her and learn about asthma and learned that it didn’t do any good to get overly alarmed.   She, in fact, told Lenny not to worry because she knew at what point she’d need to be rushed to the hospital.

      Going to shoot the son-of-bitch.

 

      Randy Ford

August 1, 2010

Paramahansa Yogananda Author- AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A YOGI

      AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A YOGI, a spiritual classic  

      by Paramahansa Yogananda

      Self-Realization Fellowhip; was founded in 1920 by Paramahansa Yogananda.  For more information go to www.yogananda-srf.org  

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August 1, 2010

Jana Bommersbach Author- THE TRUNK MURDERESS: WINNIE RUTH JUDD

      THE TRUNK MURDERESS: WINNIE RUTH JUDD

      by Jana Bommersbach 

      ONEBOOKAZ 2010 WINNING SELECTION

      ONEBOOKAZ.org 

      “An hour with a good book is 60 minutes of magic.”- Jana Bommersbach

August 1, 2010

Susan Lowell Author- THE THREE LITTLE JAVELINAS LOS TRES PEQUENOS JABALIES

       THE THREE LITTLE JAVELINAS      LOS TRES PEQUENOS JABALIES

      by Susan Lowell and illustrated by Jim Harris 

      ONEBOOKAZ for Kids 2010 WINNING SELECTION

      ONEBOOKAZ.org/kids 

      “Reading is a magical power: Leer es un poder magico.”- Susan Lowell

July 31, 2010

Randy Ford Author- A PRINCE Fourth Novel 27th Installment

      The clock said seven, and they’d been talking and drinking since six.   Higgs ordered one more for each of them before they left the El Sombrero together.   The excuse that he gave he had given innumerable times but no beer ever seemed more important to him than that one.   It seemed only yesterday and just as vivid, and nothing had been more humiliating.   Yet he couldn’t for the life of him give a good reason why he’d became cozy with his tormentors.

      Sometimes in the cafeteria; sometimes during study hall, they’d tease.   The boys couldn’t keep from laughing at him, and he felt inferior.

      By this time Maggie, with her sparkling eyes and long hair (the first time he noticed her she was wearing a red dress with spaghetti straps), had started flirting, hoping Lenny would notice her.   By this time Cesar, his domination over Antonio completed, started plotting about what he’d do to Lenny.

      Then came the day in the busy school parking lot when Cesar offered Lenny his car by saying, “Go ahead.   Ask her out…here are my keys…get a little for me.”   Cesar obviously got a big kick out of that.

      Cesar’s Chevy convertible came with sunglasses and suntan lotion.   By then word had spread throughout the school that good girls didn’t ride in Cesar’s car.   For it was true that Cesar’s car had gained that kind of notoriety, and Cesar loved ruining reputations.   He loved scandal, and even then used scandal to gain power, but more than that he loved to make people squirm.

      Lenny was in love with Maggie, even then, and she with him, but still she wouldn’t put out.   They’d drive down to the golf course on the Santa Cruz, dry as ever and outside of town.   They’d park there and at night pet.   And for while their whole future depended on what went on there, and the prospects elated them.

      Still Maggie wouldn’t put out.   No matter how much he pressured her, she simply wouldn’t.   And that meant to Lenny (and his friends) that she didn’t love him enough.   And Cesar would say something dumb such as, “I think there’s something wrong with her.”

      “Like what?”

      How many times did they have this conversation …with lowered, contemptuous voices, led by Cesar…and with Lenny secretly seething inside and often wondering what was wrong with him because of Maggie and…?   What was wrong?   No joking. And the laughing.   And Lenny seething inside.

      “Oh Lenny! Lenny, honey…is s-something wr-wrong?   Tell me!” Maggie would plead, while shielding herself with her arms tightly folded across her chest.   “I’m afraid…kept thinking that you wouldn’t like me for who I am.   But I didn’t want to be left out but…but… I said I was afraid you wouldn’t care.”

      “I care alright,” said Higgs, silently cursing.

      “Knowing you care is important to me.   If you didn’t care I don’t know what I’d do.”

      And she trusted that he wouldn’t talk to his friends about her and their petting, and said once again, “I was afraid that you wouldn’t like me when I wouldn’t, and I didn’t want to be the only one so I gave in a little, but I see how unhappy that made you, and of course I’d been warned by my parents, daddy mostly, and…and how about a piece of gum?”

      “Gum?”

      “Yeah, Juicy Fruit.”

      “Yeah.”

      And all the while Jessica and Lydia thought there was nothing wrong with putting out.   All the while kids had free access to automobiles, and smooching meant nothing to some girls, some girls put out and some girls didn’t. Some humped; some didn’t.   And some girls were plain embarrassed by it: that was how different girls were.   What the hell!   That was Lydia’s attitude.   One night, Lydia; and the next, Jessica.

      Now, when he said to Lenny, “Call her up and take her out…here are my keys…get some for me,” Cesar felt high.   He’d tempt Lenny in a way that he hadn’t been tempted before.   If Maggie wouldn’t put out Lydia would.   “Oh, go on, Lenny.   Maggie won’t find out, and what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her.”

      For three weeks Lenny got himself plenty and hated himself for it.   First Lydia; then Jessica.   “Do you remember Lydia?”

      “No!”

      “What a heel I was?”

      That was when he nearly told Maggie about Lydia. Besides she knew.   By this time Lenny and Maggie, whom everyone had seen cruising around in Cesar’s convertible, would’ve been an item, and how in world would Maggie not have known?

      Lydia was especially good-looking, but he didn’t fall for her.   They had Cesar’s car and a choice spot at the golf course, and with the blues on.   People with horses lived nearby, and he hated the flies and the smell of the horses.   (That was a smell Higgs always associated with Cesar’s Palace; goddamn it, not just the smell but also those pesky flies.)   He hated Cesar, and Cesar hated him.

      And plenty more things happened that made him hate himself: fucking Lydia when he had doubts about wanting to, fucking her over and over and feeling depraved and disgusted with himself immediately afterward.   He then learned that she couldn’t keep it secret.   He somehow knew Lydia would tell and that her friends would talk, as well as everybody, ha, ha, or kid him about his peter, ha, ha, ha.   He didn’t enjoy it.   And the second time…and…   Poor Maggie.   God dammit!   Ha, ha, shut up!   It didn’t hurt or frighten her.   It was obvious to Lenny that Lydia had been there before.   And Jessica too.   Used and knew enough to keep him from becoming a father.   Then it was rumored that he liked boys.   Shut up!   Goddamn it!   (Queer!)   Shut the fuck up!   He wasn’t even jerking off yet.   Only recently learned what jacking off meant…learned the mean way.   Ha, ha, ha.

      Ha, ha.

      Ha.

      “Finished?”

      “Yes, I’m sorry.”   And Lydia witnessed his debilitating weakness.   Later he condemned himself and became even angrier with Cesar.

      Forget the idea of him ever having a humdrum life.   He had his friend Cesar to think for that.

      At that hour Higgs and George, drunk, attacked Cesar for his depravity; and Lydia, in the khaki blue of prison garb, cried softly because her life was over.   And what about Jessica?   Forget Jessica!   Higgs talked about how he had a devil of a time with Lydia and how he became afraid he’d contract v d.   He hadn’t had Maggie yet.   He’d have to wait until they were married for that.   Only a couple of girls up until then.   It was rather strange when he thought about it, especially when Maggie told him how much their first kiss meant to her.

      No no come on I never loved Lydia now you see how I was and I was a fellow without a lot of experience and I made a lot of mistakes and not so long ago either but now I want to go steady and hope eventually we can get married and don’t be fooled by the rumors that I cared for Lydia or Jessica listen when we get a chance I want to tell you how much I love you forgive me Maggie

 Look here take a good look at me and what you see a lonely old man and I don’t care anymore about a thing like my drinking and not because all that gets put it behind me before I can see you again forgive me Maggie

      I’m talking about the cruel fate of our knowing that son-of-a bitch going to shoot him going to shoot him through and with my luck I’ll miss you forgive me Maggie

      It won’t be long Maggie no it won’t be.

      At that hour with glazed eyes that seemed set in a gaze the two men focused on what they’d been through.   They were still sitting there, each with his bottle of beer, in a smoky bar and hidden by Saturday’s crowd, and each with more to say…

      going to shoot the son-of-bitch.

 

      Randy Ford

July 31, 2010

Arizona State Braille & Talking Book Library- GO DIGITAL

      ARIZONA STATE BRAILLE & TALKING BOOK LIBRARY

      1030 N. 32nd Street, Phoenix Az.  85008

      Ph: (602) 255-5578   Fax: (602) 286-0444

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      GO DIGITAL

      As of October 2010, The National Library Service will no longer be producing books on cassette, so be sure to get your request in early for the Digital Book Machine. 

      With the new digital book machine you have a longer play time on battery (29 Hours).  Recharge time of only 2 hours for a full charge.  No more flipping tapes over or flipping switches to get to the other side of the book.  The whole book fits on one digital cartridge.  Better sound quality, smaller player and easy to use.  Keep your cassette player too because not all books are available in digital format. 

      Sign up nor for the Digital Machine.  Call or email us your request. 

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July 31, 2010

Amethyst Moon Publishing and Services- News’ Interview of author Dan Misiaszek’s Incredible Rescue & The Power of the Past Tense

Be sure to check out the news’ interview of author Dan Misiaszek’s incredible rescue of a young man who took his canoe over some falls.  The link is in the newsletter.  Please enjoy this month’s article about the Power of the Past Tense (a continuation of the Power of Words series).  The link to the newsletter is:  www.onechoicecanchangealife.com/newsletter/news0810.html

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